Having health issues just stinks

Having major health issues is hard to deal with,especially when your quality of life has gone downhill.Seven years ago when i tried getting out of bed,something in my neck popped.I couldn't move for two days.When i was finally able to move and able to see the doctor,i was told my neck was just a temporary thing,probably a pinched nerve.That was back in 2002.This is now almost the end of 2009 and i still have the pain in my neck,but only worse.Instead of having one herniated disc,i now have two.And because it affects my entire body,i am sick all of the time.I cannot turn my head side to side without getting dizzy and feeling like i am going to throw up.So that means i can't drive anymore.I have limited use of my right arm,and i get a bad tingly feeling down my entire body.My right foot has been affected the most.I have stumbled too many times to count.I cannot work any more because i have headaches that are for worse than a migraine.Now with all of that,three years ago in May,shortly after my husband an i moved to Florida,my muscles in my body started hurting really bad.I was having unexplained chest pains that i have never had before.So after my husband's insurance began,i went to new doctor who didn't listen to my concerns,so i found a new one.This doctor really cared,and actually listened to my concerns.After having lots of blood work drawn,and other tests, their finding was i had Fibromyalgia.Great.My body feels like the muscles have been wrung out like a wet towel.I hurt all over and the tender spots from head to toe hurt bad.Because i have a problem getting around,i sometimes rely on a can to help support me when i walk.Have i mentioned that i am 47 years old and feel as if i am 90?I am embarrassed to say that i need help from my husband to help me when i use the bathroom.I cannot wipe myself anymore,and god forbid we are at Disney.He has to come into the companion restroom to help me.People look as us if we are doing naughty stuff,but we aren't.He is my assistant,my best friend and the most patient man ever.What other man would do this for his wife?And my husband is a former Marine.Now with everything that is wrong with me,i also have Osteoarthritis.I am a walking picture of health.So now i am no longer able to work because of all of this.I am very patient to a point when it comes to my disability court hearing.I am told 18 months is how long it may take.My patience is wearing thinner every day.I feel bad that i cannot help my husband pay rent,bills or put food on the table.With the way i feel,you would think i would be depressed.I can't be.Fibro may have taken a toll on my body,but its not dragging my spirit down too.This is a disease that i don't wish toward anyone.